Lunch

Smoked Fish Kicks Ass.

Today I felt as if the whole world were traped in a giant grey bubble, like in that episode of the outer limits.

Ever get that feeling where you know your on the verge of having like twelve headakes, and you've been floping around all day, nearly listless but not quite, just alive enough to function at a bare minimum, just enough to be able to wish that they(the headakes) would go ahead and get on with it so that your misserable day could be compleet and you could sink into a vague pit of pain, but instead are stuck hanging over the edge sitting in a puddle of your own appathy?


oh well.

Provincial Elections

Its election time in Ontario, and I have a funny storry for you. I am 20 years old, and this year was the first in which I participated in a vote. Being in Windsor for school, I was a bit far from home, so I went to an advanced voting station. Now, I had never voted before, and the two old ladies handeling all the paper work (there were AT LEAST 100 years between the two of them) were VERY intimidating :P Anyway, I filled out my forms that alow me to vote here, and proceded to the voting 'booth' (actually just a cardboard box on a table) with the folded balot hot in my hand. Here is where all the speaches about 'you CAN make a difference' and 'don't let others make your decisions for you' flashed through my mind. And I was feeling pretty good about myself, thinking that I was finnaly adding my say. All untill I opened the balot. Can they MAKE these things any less clear? On the balot, which was black, were 5 or 6 names in white with big white circles beside them. What is so hard about this, you ask? I had no idea who these people were! I had never voted before, and I had no idea what to expect! If they had put the candidates for premurs names on the thing, then I would have understood, but I didn't know anything about ridings and whatnot! All I knew was the party I wanted to vote for; I didn't want to take a degree in political science to do so! So in the end, I put it all up to random chance and through an X down. It ends up that it was liberal, who knew? oh well. You can laugh if you want (I know I do:P). You could say that If I wanted to make a vote, then it should have been an informed vote anyway, and that my not even knowing how to fill out the ballot is not a good indication that I have such a vote. And I would say to you: oh well. Maby next(X4) year :P

Lunchtime

Today I decided to have a shower at lunch instead of in the morning. you would be amazed at just how much of a difference this can make in one's ability to handle the day. Try it. Also, I decided to skip my Java class. I don't think I could handle art today otherwise. I have questioned myself: am I keeping up? I have been forced to answer no. I feel somewhat lost in all of this, not entirely sure what I want to do with myself in the end. Maby it is just the meds speaking. My anti-ADD drugs, while enhancing my ability to concentrate being stimulants, also increase my anxiety, and therefore I am depressed. Odd mix, if you ask me: 'Stimulated Depresion'. Again, oh well. I think that this week end I will throw down the proverbial gauntlet on this Java class, and spend all day Saturday mastering it. Maby Sunday as well. Hey, I did it for HTML, why not this? IT'S BLITZ TIME!!!!!!

Today

Today I decided to go bikeriding allong the waterfront. When I woke up it was raining. It's a funny thing, when you become so set on something, thinking that 'now I will do this thing', and happy that you have pushed your life in a good direction. And then the rain comes. You say 'oh-well, guess I'll have to do this thing tomorow instead', but what if it rains tomorow too?

oh-well, tomorow I will go swiming instead :P